I'm Back?
Today is the first day of school.
What a crazy ride these past two weeks have been.
This last week I realized something as I was rocking my feverish baby at 3am. I realized I've been lonely. It is interesting how different being lonely, and being alone are from each other. In the past couple of weeks I think my calmest moments have been while alone. I did escape the chaos here for short trips to the store and once I even went to a movie...all by myself! The peace I found while alone was so important, but that is different from the support I've felt lacking. Escaping and being supported are both necessary, just at different times.
I've missed writing. Even the little posts I do here. I've missed the feel of order that comes when I think something out in this way. I miss the feeling of creation. I get that feeling when looking at a new post here. That I've done something. I've placed a bit of myself out there in the best way I could find. The rhythm of writing will be a welcome friend of again.
I've missed my readers here. I've missed the comments. Each comment really is a little boost that keeps my desire to create, to write, flowing. I've missed reading. I have gone days without as much as checking my email. I enjoy reading well-written perspectives and I look forward to nap time this afternoon so that I can sit and read and catch up with some amazing people.
I think I should create a line of T-Shirts that say "I Survived ____________". Then just make velcro pieces to fit over the blank space. They can say things like "Swim Lessons" and "A Summer in Phoenix" and "Motherhood" or maybe just things like "Yesterday" or "Last Week" or "The Doctor's Appointment". Ha! The Doctor's Appointment makes me laugh. I took the now one year-old in for his well-check last week. The next day he started running a fever. Been six days now and the fever hasn't gone away. I'd happily just pay for the second visit without the baby getting sick ya-know. But we go back this afternoon to make sure the cold hasn't turned into something worse. This time he will stay on my lap and not touch anything in the exam room! Course I'm going to have to take all the other kids with me. Wish me luck. I'd hate to have a new disease start up tomorrow.
What a crazy ride these past two weeks have been.
This last week I realized something as I was rocking my feverish baby at 3am. I realized I've been lonely. It is interesting how different being lonely, and being alone are from each other. In the past couple of weeks I think my calmest moments have been while alone. I did escape the chaos here for short trips to the store and once I even went to a movie...all by myself! The peace I found while alone was so important, but that is different from the support I've felt lacking. Escaping and being supported are both necessary, just at different times.
I've missed writing. Even the little posts I do here. I've missed the feel of order that comes when I think something out in this way. I miss the feeling of creation. I get that feeling when looking at a new post here. That I've done something. I've placed a bit of myself out there in the best way I could find. The rhythm of writing will be a welcome friend of again.
I've missed my readers here. I've missed the comments. Each comment really is a little boost that keeps my desire to create, to write, flowing. I've missed reading. I have gone days without as much as checking my email. I enjoy reading well-written perspectives and I look forward to nap time this afternoon so that I can sit and read and catch up with some amazing people.
I think I should create a line of T-Shirts that say "I Survived ____________". Then just make velcro pieces to fit over the blank space. They can say things like "Swim Lessons" and "A Summer in Phoenix" and "Motherhood" or maybe just things like "Yesterday" or "Last Week" or "The Doctor's Appointment". Ha! The Doctor's Appointment makes me laugh. I took the now one year-old in for his well-check last week. The next day he started running a fever. Been six days now and the fever hasn't gone away. I'd happily just pay for the second visit without the baby getting sick ya-know. But we go back this afternoon to make sure the cold hasn't turned into something worse. This time he will stay on my lap and not touch anything in the exam room! Course I'm going to have to take all the other kids with me. Wish me luck. I'd hate to have a new disease start up tomorrow.
10 Comments:
We missed you too :)
The longer I go without writing, the crankier and / or more listless I get. You really should try to do a little bit everyday, if only for the good of humanity :P
And I always carry Purell (an alcohol based liquid disinfectant), so I can wash my hands anytime. And I *always* wash them when leaving the doctor's office, even though I don't touch anything. Sick people are always in there, so its germ heaven...
I missed you. I am glad you're back. Sometimes a break is a good thing though.
Did Brandon get shots last week? Than can cause fevers. I hope you come home without new illnesses. Although, you know the first month of school is bad for that too.
are back, I was thinking of doing are U OK post.
Summer can be hectic, I've been busy too
It really is good to read you again. I missed this part of you.
Thanks for the very sweet and uplifting post you gave me. It made me feel special, and unlonely.
I understand how you feel in this post. I feel this way lately too. Maybe we share similiar hearts. Thank you for your wonderful posts that you put up. They are great! Have a great day and know that I am thinking of you and that you have touched my life! Thanks friend.
You know, I think you might actually have something with the shirt idea. I'm not kidding. I would totally buy that. Welcome back.
I like the t-shirt and velcro idea! Genious! When will you be marketing them???
I always figure that the beginning of school is the real New Year.
Welcome back! I missed you too. :-)
Totally missed this part... but on a re-read, I love the T-shirt idea too. A friend of mine rafted the Grand Canyon with a buddy and they came away sporting T shirts they'd made....
A skull and cross-bones in the centre with the caption:
D.I.E.
Dave and Ian's Excellent Adventure!
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